Trying to keep it all together…

the real me as a clown
Clowning around.

With all the things going on in the world I try to keep my home life on an even keel. We keep routines, stick together as a family, and check on each other every day for things going on.

So when I decide to take on a big dream and disrupt the status quo things get interesting.

No details yet on what this project may be. I’ll fill you in at a later date. Let’s just say I’ve been dealing with a thick layer of fear around the whole thing and trying new ways to work through it…step into it…try to get by it. It’s a big thing so I’m in no hurry to get to it without due diligence but I’m finding fear to be a big stumbling block.

A few random things wandered into my field of vision to make me realize I wasn’t just procrastinating but stuck. The first was a line from a FB post…if your dreams don’t scare you, you aren’t dreaming big enough. Ummm okay! Think about that for a minute. If you’re comfortable, and possibly bored a bit, with your life maybe it’s time for a change. Made my brain start firing…

Secondly I saw a post from another self esteem guru that I love which reaffirmed that the universe was screaming at me…and I better listen! All the things I want to achieve are on the other side of that fear…

Here’s a little video I put together about fear…and, also, sticking your face in front of the camera is scary too! So I’m going to practice doing some more of these videos…stay tuned!